I have now been smoke free for about 28 hours. Yesterday was hard. Today, not so bad. I havent had any flip outs and my life isnt particularly easy at the moment. Upon waking I had a strong craving, but that passed quickly and I am still no more hungry than I was a few days ago.
I chanced going out to the bar round the corner to have a few drinks and I was fine. My friends went out for their puffs, came back in smelling of the sweet death that I’ve known and loved for years and I barely gave it a second thought.
I really hope I have the willpower to make this happen for myself. I am not one who is great with that whole “mind over matter” thing. Whether it be with letting lovers go, smoking, drinking, or just getting my laundry done…something usually distracts me and I fuck up. I just keep trying to think of being able to run a mile without wanting to die, $60 extra per week to spend or save, and better skin. It will also be nice to not hear my parents say “Oh God K, you stink like crap” whenever I go to hug them.
